Better late than never...

This is the first time I am visiting my blog in the New Year.As always,procrastination has had the better of me!Anyway,wishing everyone late but wishing everyone heartily...Happy New Year!

People often tell me that I write well.But I don't feel so myself.Because when I sit around idle,having nothing to do,I have ideas wrestling about and filling up my mind,but the moment I have my fingers ready to tap away on the keyboard,the ideas just seem to go bonkers!It would be too ingratiating and arrogant to call this writer's block because I ain't no writer yet:) but then what is it?There are time when I so feel liking writing out everything in my head...the good,the bad,the ugly...but then the desire somehow subsides!I wonder if there are people who have the same feelings as mine.

Anyway,the New Year so far has been a concoction of good,bad and depressing.I spent almost the whole of January drenching myself in the spirits of a new place where New Year had a slightly different meaning.In the place where I come from,New Year revolves around the last couple of days,maybe just the last week of December and the the first few days of January.While there are hearty wishes on the 31st and 1st and maybe the 2nd...the tempo gradually dies down and is almost non-existant from the 4th or 5th day onwards.But in the place that I am now,New Year seems to trundle on till the end of January.Although people come back to their workplaces by mid-month,the drippings on the long-enjoyed repose seem to hang on.Which is what I like, when people so mirthfully and dreamily speak of how they enjoyed the 'holidays' with their friends and family and all the goodies they had.I just like the spirit of goodness that wafts through during this time!

The New Year,for me,has been a bumpy ride from the start.There are some plans that have materialised, some that have failed to even kickstart!But then,living on with the uncertainties of life and living on accepting the fact that not everything will work out the way you want it to be, is wiser and humbler.Because I guess,the One who is in charge has His own ways for all of us!

I promise to myself that I will visit my blog more frequently in the New Year.Right now,the blog is quite aimless.But soon enoughI plan to gather myself up and plan a proper direction for my blog.So long,happy reading and stay well!

A new chapter...

Have not written a post for quite a long time now.Many changes have come to my life since the last time I wrote a post.I have changed countries...have changed climes and have changed the people around me.Am I happy?Ahh...yes...I am happy.There is a contentment somewhere deep inside.Speaking too eloquently about it makes me guilty,because changing the world around me has not been easy enough.It was a tough choice..but still I opted for it.Hope the decision comes out to be a favorable one for me.Just hope.

The ramblings turn sombre

I am disappointed with something today...very disappointed!Had been pining hopes on something which has failed miserably.I was getting an inkling of it for quite some time now but somehow kept making my heart believe that it will turn out well.But it has not and that's the truth!So what's next??

I sulk,I bicker..I listen to a couple of hard-hitting depressing songs on my iPod..but nothing seems to soothe the bruises.Why always me???This is what I think..

Everyone around me seems to have got what he or she has or had wanted...everyone is happy..but I a not!I mull over all thngs that have happended in my life till now and tend to make myself stop and gape at the bad things that have happened...somewhere I villainously skirt aroung the good things that have happened.But then...at this moment of frustration,I feel like the world has coerced me to be this little rude person who has bore the brunt too long to be emotionally logical anymore.

I have this heavy,sinking feeling in my heart and it is hurting somewhere..somewhere deep...

"No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know, I know
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what"

- 'No matter what they say' by Boyzone
Andrew Lloyd Webber (music)
Jim Steinman(lyrics)

Rain rain go away...come again another day

It has been raining heavily today.We had just had our lunch when big fat droplets of water started raining on us.The sky had been sulking for quite some time before that and gusts of wind left the damsels in real distress with their dupattas going out of control (not that being at the right place is what is expected of them always;)).The sight of a damsel trying hard to keep fragments of her attire from flowing their own way in the billowing breeze often creates flutters is some hearts and this day,it was no different!The Rain Gods lashed out with all their gusto and it was deep into the evening when finally the white sheet of rain gave way to a fuzzy sliver bent with the heaviness of fresh moisture.I matched steps with the pitter patter of raindrops falling in and out of puddles as I walked home from work.Somewhere the heaviness in the air filled my mind with memories...some happy some sad..some heart-breaking...but then that is the beauty of the rains!

The first one...

I just created my blog...have been pondering over the idea of putting the mindless ramblings of an over-worked mind in black and white for quite some time now.Hope you visit my blog and read what I write.More to come...