The ramblings turn sombre

I am disappointed with something today...very disappointed!Had been pining hopes on something which has failed miserably.I was getting an inkling of it for quite some time now but somehow kept making my heart believe that it will turn out well.But it has not and that's the truth!So what's next??

I sulk,I bicker..I listen to a couple of hard-hitting depressing songs on my iPod..but nothing seems to soothe the bruises.Why always me???This is what I think..

Everyone around me seems to have got what he or she has or had wanted...everyone is happy..but I a not!I mull over all thngs that have happended in my life till now and tend to make myself stop and gape at the bad things that have happened...somewhere I villainously skirt aroung the good things that have happened.But then...at this moment of frustration,I feel like the world has coerced me to be this little rude person who has bore the brunt too long to be emotionally logical anymore.

I have this heavy,sinking feeling in my heart and it is hurting somewhere..somewhere deep...

"No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know, I know
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what"

- 'No matter what they say' by Boyzone
Andrew Lloyd Webber (music)
Jim Steinman(lyrics)